tomorrow i’m going to coachella. i was eleven when i bought "evil empire" i am now 22. wow.
they're not the band they were 11 years ago, even if they are. i'm a lot different now, older. their music doesn't have the same impact on me as it did in my younger and more vulnerable years (did i just quote fitzgerald?). they were one of the groups that gave me an identity as a meek teen. now that i am no longer that person their music is a reflection of my past, a way of looking back and seeing how i've grown and changed. i don't remember the last time i really loved rage while i was listening them, i still like them and always will but 20 hours away from seeing them for the first time ever, i feel like it'll be the last time i feel a real connection. it's a bit wistful feeling this way but also encouraging as i can look back and acknowledge how life has changed, how far i've come and how drastic the next eleven years might be. this concert may be a revival for the whole world but for me it's a send off, happy with the experiences had.
p.s. the mosh pit should me pretty amazing. remember moshing?.